Thursday, January 27, 2011

How do I want the world to be different?

What should I be asking myself? Is this what I want to be doing? How do I want the world to be different because I lived in it? How do I want to be different because I lived in this world? 

 What should I  be asking myself? During my college career I have found myself questioning whether or not I am really following God's will. I have also caught myself looking for other opportunities, or alternative options for what could possibly be God's direction or will in my life. School is definitely not easy and on those frustrating days in class, I sometimes just want to throw in the towel and take a different path. But it  must be those days that I am asking myself the wrong questions. You see, I know that this is where God has me right now. Attending the school of Urban Missions. Wow how simple is that. Sometimes I am probably just thinking too much about a situation instead of trusting that God knows what He is doing. Relying on the Lord, and hoping in Him... not in school... is the key. And truly I do enjoy the college. How I have grown and how God has used it to bless my life.

Is this what I want to be doing? Yes and no. I still have some desires in my heart that are not fulfilled, but this is to prepare me and equip me for what God has for me in the future. So I guess I can sometimes try to dream myself away to the future, but right now I have a purpose in completing this year of school.


How do I want the world to be different because I've lived in it? Whoa tough question. It would be unbelievably selfish of me to say that I haven't thought about it much wouldn't it? What I mean to say is that I have thought about how I want to impact those around me, but I don't think I have come to the realization of  how big the world is.
My best answer to this question, it that I hope when the world remembers me they remember how I brought people into worship, and how I strived to be as close to the Lord as humanly possible. And how the God was the one who mattered most to me.

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